Left Humbled:

As I lean,
On this sturdy pole.
As I turn white,
Everything else is null.

My feelings,
Are drained.
Can't feel,
Can't be pained.

I see the past,
Focus on the future.
Cold as ice,
Very few fur.

Silence in the making,
Nothing much to say.
I don't want to be seen,
I think as I lay.

Confused on my demands,
Courteous to my words.
I think too critically,
Especially to those nerds.

I can't live,
Knowing what I've caused.
People have done worse,
For that I've paused.